So I wrote this today on a Crohn's Forum for people who are struggling/need advice/someone to talk to/check in/ etc. basically anything Crohn's related!
I've had a bad day today - not Crohn's related but anxiety. Crohn's wise I've been fine. I just...urgh, dealing with both (anxiety and Crohn's) just gets too much.
So while I posted it on the forum, I thought I'd paste it here for you guys as well.
It's just a reminder that this disease is not easy. Anxiety isn't easy. Life, a lot of the time, isn't easy.
*Also to my best friend who I bailed on this evening - I'm sorry. I know she won't read this - Crohnserella is a secret identity after all - but I felt the need to type it anyway.
So here's my rant about anxiety and Crohn's...
I hate to be a ranter but sometimes we just need it. So I apologise in advance for sounding like a whiny...person.
It's just...so I have anxiety right? Which is fine. And now I have Crohn's which I guess is fine too. But having to deal with the both of them is such bullshit.
Like, if Crohn's isn't making me feel ill, then anxiety is. And even then if my Crohn's isn't enough to make me ill anxious-wise, it all becomes too much for my head and I end up upset and frightened about everything.
I worry about Crohn's every day. And it's just easier to stay home because then I don't have to worry because worrying is so exhausting. :'(
I want to go out and do things, but it's just too hard - and not because I'm Crohn's ill, I'm just...exhausted. And sick of over thinking and worrying.
To top it off, I've been sleeping a lot! Even when I don't do anything. I don't know if this has anything to do with my medication, but I don't usually take naps during the day.
It's just...I can't have one thing without the other - either I stay in as a loner and be worry free. Or I go out and enjoy myself but be worried sickless & to exhaustion.
Does anyone else get this?
Thank you if you read all of that.
Also I apologise for the white background. But I cannot be bothered to fix it, so sorry!
